Are they on call like fire fighters waiting for the snow alarm? What do they do when there is no snow to plow? Is there a day when snow season starts and they get suited up and ready? Et, finalement, où va la neige ?
I‘m in my 30s and diagnosed 4 months ago. I had been to multiple doctors about my fatigue and inability to focus, thinking sleepiness was making me so foggy. The diagnosis was a surprise, but the more I learned about ADHD the more I could see the “quirks” I’ve always had that were actually symptoms.
I gradually worked up to 30mg of Vyvanse, and the biggest thing I noticed was more balanced energy. I wasn’t falling asleep midday, and felt more “even” in my energy levels. This made it a lot easier to get stuff done around the house, so I figured the meds were doing something good. However, I was still struggling to focus, especially with work, reading, and following conversations. Doctor upped me to 40mg.
I haven’t noticed any benefits since upping the dose. I still struggle to get anything done at work, it feels like a miracle that I have a job. Everything at work feels simultaneously boring and overwhelming. I am also noticing the fatigue creeping back; I can easily take a nap at 5 pm and if I’m not “careful” I can really mess up my sleep schedule which makes this all worse.
I’ve also lost all desire to exercise, something I loved, and am struggling to have a balanced whole-foods diet. On the one hand, I know these are critical to my success, but they also feel impossible right now.
I can’t tell if I’m messing this up, if I’m just not interested in my job and no amount of medication will help this, if my behaviours are making this worse, or if it’s time to try new meds. My doctor is on mat leave and I’m nervous about starting “over” with a new one.
Sorry for the rant, feeling a bit lost and lonely in all of this - if you can relate that would mean a lot!